Suppose you might wanna know

Well I guess I kind of blew away in the wind after the Ontarios and I turned into a ghost……. Aside from my little facebook rants and twitter one liners that had me off my rocker… I cant fight the passion!!

Well – for those who are unaware, I did not place top 5 so that means I am not going on to compete at Nationals. Although yes, that would be cool to do… I am happy that I’ve got the time off, enjoying my brand new HOUSE with the love of my life, and just acting like some kinda grown up… NOT!

Well I placed 12th, and where I leave the judging in the judges hands, I think my look was pretty fly. I am really happy with how everything came together, and Kim had me looking like a cartoon up there! I was so FULL and friggen Muscular!!!!!!! Wow. After 5 hard years of training, we got it all down pat and brought this:
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So that was fun, I got to hang out with my buddies backstage and we just embraced the wait, and enjoyed every moment! Alexa, Jenna, Elena, Lauren, Noelle… You guys were great! I was especially stoked for my friend Jenna who won our class in figure C. You looked dynamite my friend – and your engaged!!! so thats even cooler!

Onto the next –

So some of you might drop your jaws, some of you might already know and some of you arent even reading this far down. And since one of you is my mom I want to take this opportunity to say HI MOM ūüôā

I have decided that I will be working with Dr Layne Norton.

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He is truly a mastermind. I’m almost on week 3… I still think this is some kind of joke because i’m so baffled with how well the process is going. I have been counting macronutrients and it is VERY fun. If you’ve known me long enough you know I love math and I get excited about numbers… My Dad used to give me minute maths with my oatmeal every morning from grade 1 onward… I am a geek. This whole macro counting thing is bad ass, and totally reminds me of those good ol’ days.

Also for those of you who are flipping your shit – I did NOT leave Kim on bad terms. We thought this would be an incredible opportunity for me to learn, and it seems like i’ve been learning something new everyday with Layne, and the guy is SOLID too. None of this bullshit cookie cutter heres your shit dont talk to me for a week… He talks to me and other teamies on facebook, he responds within the minute sometimes to email… Just solid and his attitude is geared specifically to long term success for us clients!!

With that said, Layne and I discussed competition plans, and decided that sitting out this fall would be of my best interest.

LONG term goals baby! I got time fo DAT!

Beaner OUT!


I know my blogs have all been about fitness lately, and I haven’t been doing anything overly fun and exciting…

HOWEVER – the other day James and I DID go trailing and it was a hella good time.

He’s missing his sidekick, and I’m missing my sidekick so we’re equally ready to cut down the work load after this show and get a bit of down time. We’re moving into our first house on June 14 and we couldn’t be more excited. Both of us have gotten to the point where we’ve outgrown a bedroom, and not having any alone time (if you know what I mean) can kinda get to ya.

So the reason for this jib jab of mine.. Here we go.

I can’t help but notice everyone is jumping on the Fitness Bandwagon. And I get it, it’s cool, it’s hard work. It’s worth something to a lot of people and it’s a huge lifestyle change that you SHOULD be proud of! How far you come from wherever you were before is a HUGE win for yourself. You should be proud of that.

Although, some people seem to be jumping on the “extremist super fitness wagon” where they decide to get ready for a show – be it 6 weeks out or 6 months out, and they all of a sudden are Ms. Figure, Ms. Bikini, etc etc. The problem with this, is we are in a sport called BODYBUILDING, and part of that process¬†entails persistence and patience. I have been training since I was 17 years old, now 21 – I still am not at my ideal physique. Do I worry about that? No. Do I start taking a huge abundance of drugs and destroy my health¬†and well being¬†so I can look like that for my next show? No. I believe in HEALTH, and small, incremental changes from year to year. If you work hard, those details really come out when you step on stage. then you don’t have to worry about something “malfunctioning” … “retaining water”…. whatever. You just fucking work and when the going gets tough you be TOUGHER. Then you take a step back, reassess the plan, and make an action plan to further improve. This sport isn’t about getting to the top of the ladder the fastest. I woulda lost all hope and quit competing after having to compete FIVE TIMES before I even qualified for ONTARIOS. Come on, you see so many people at Ontario’s now and you’re like ” holy shit, you took that long, you must have looked like shit” … well partially, but I actually learned something during that time.

So now I want to give back, and hopefully give you all some insight on what I believe to be VERY important in this industry, whether you’re only here for the hype or you’re actually willing to put in the time and effort to have some longevity in this sport.

You see someone who looks insane at the gym or in a magazine. You approach a trainer at the gym and ask them to get you into that shape, they agree, take your money, and you have no idea what you’re getting into.
DISASTER AWAITS. Although I can’t say every trainer sucks, you can’t expect an average CanFitPro trainer to be able to get you into contest shape. As well, just because someone has DONE A SHOW does NOT MEAN they have a fucking clue. Generally, they follow a trainers program to get to their show, and if they looked good – their trainer was half decent. Sometimes phenomenal. That being said, this does not entitle them to “EXPERT” status, as they only know what they were told by their trainer for THEIR BODY. Go online, look up the people who inspire you, be it local, professional, semi-pro or just competitive. Look at WHO trains them, try to get details on HOW they train. Get a GOOD trainer. Learn from them, maybe branch off to a different trainer after that. BUT LISTEN TO ONE FUCKING PERSON ONLY if you’re going to train with them. Nothing is worse than trying to coach someone and wondering WTF is going on, only to find out Bob Saget told them chicken was going to give them cancer so they start eating black beans or some bullshit.

Not all trainers can handle a large client load. You sign up for a cookie cutter program for the most part if that’s the case. Unless your Eric (Lean Bodies Consulting)¬†or Layne Norton- but they charge a big buck for REAL INDIVIDUALIZATION.
Your coach should be basing your diet and training around you – Your height, weight, goal, and what you need to focus on to obtain a solid physique.

Nobody, I mean NOBODY should be eating a straight up fish and egg white diet. If you are, I hope you like fish and eggs and you’re doing it on purpose. That’s the path to clear MD(Metabolic Damage). When your body reaches a deficit BEYOND LOW CALORIE, it just stops. It says … hmmm well we’re not going to change shape, and we’re not going to lose anymore weight. quite frankly, we might even gain weight. Your trainer accuses you of cheating, lowers calories even more, from egg whites and fish to half of the egg whites and fish you were eating. Now not just diminishing carbs but diminishing any sort of food you were eating. You finish your show, don’t look nearly as good as you wanted, you binge, you gain 40 lbs. Suddenly, you cant lose that weight again. Your trainer says you have to diet harder than last time. You start at 1200 calories a day, you finish at 600. You still look like shit. If this sounds like you, GET A NEW TRAINER

Although most people say ” oh I rebounded so hard I have metabolic damage”. No. You don’t. You might have fucked it up because it was at an alltime low, and during your “Anabolic prime” post contest, you were really at a FAT PRIME where you gorge, and eventually the “holding water” and filling your muscles with glycogen just surpasses the state where your metabolism thanks you, and then you put on more weight than you lost. That is your own doing. Remember when you were hungry during prep? Well your still going to be hungry when you finish a contest diet, reality of it is, you have to have some willpower.¬†That is VERY tricky though, because you unfortunately don’t have that goal in front of you to get to a show for a certain date, so you lose sight of that strength that you had to get to the show. truth be told, you have to be even stronger than that person that fought to the stage. Eat to live. Do not live to eat.

You want to be a physique competitor? You want to be a bikini competitor? Oh ok. That’s great. BUT YOU NEED TO LOOK AT THESE GIRLS ON STAGE – PARTICULARLY THE ONES THAT YOU WOULD WANT TO LOOK LIKE – for example, DLB,¬†Justine Munro, Kim Tilden, Nathalia Melo, Candice Keene, Larissa Reis, Erin Stern.. List CONTINUES. These girls did not pick up a weight one day and turn pro. They had athletic backgrounds and had to put in their 110% effort to compete. If you want to do a show and you’ve never done anything but cardio, consider a long offseason, work on making gains. THEN diet down. If you just start “training for a show” and your 90 lbs soaking wet chances are when you walk onto a physique stage you will look like a stick and you will wonder “what the fuck am I doing”

Yes, some of you ARE stage ready at this point, and you look insane, and you fucking ROCK THAT SHIT. BUT – there are a few people who want to compete just to get on stage and have fun. And because their proud of their selves. Ok, unfortunately this might sound rude but … GO do a photoshoot, get some boudoir pictures for your man… Whatever.¬†But this¬†sport isn’t for the light hearted. So¬†if you jump on stage to have fun,¬†without dragging every last bit of ass you have to get to the stage, be prepared to get stunned.


I met a LOT of people in my first year competing. I was actually very lucky to have the opportunity to meet all of these people and whether they are acquaintances or great friends of mine, I am very thankful for having that opportunity and I want to briefly list the order of events that really put me where I am now.

1) Ben Pakulski Рfirst bodybuilder I ever really saw. Saw him at a Photoshoot with my dad back in the day before I got into this. Had a giant 16 year old crush on him. Went to Nationals, watched Ben and Athena win their Pro cards. Got inspired.
2) Asked someone for assistance in getting into an offseason and work towards a show, they said I was too young to compete. Got disheartened.
3) received assistance, was thankful they gave me the opportunity to learn and be patient enough to show me the ropes РI was clueless
4) prepped for¬†my first show.¬†Didn’t look spectacular, still¬†worked my buns off and proud of it.¬†Second show, fat as a¬†pig.
5) Got fat, got on board and¬†competed twice that same fall. Didn’t place top 3, then got 2nd at a Level 1 show (when the 3 tier was in¬†place)
6)Met Kim Tilden somewhere along the lines of the fall show. welcomed me in with open arms to her club, did whatever she could to get me to the stage while I prepped myself. Fedel Clarke put me through a couple workouts to show me how strong I could actually be before these shows as well. Self doubt is killer, glad I had that push.
7) Kim Tilden – taught me and continues to teach me absolutely everything she knows. Character, Nutrition, Performance, Compassion, Acceptance.

I reflect back, and although proud of myself and how far I’ve come.. Think what if I waited, what if I worked up to it more… what If I found Kim at the start… Well I didn’t. So I had to learn these things through my own journey, and hopefully you will all be able to speak of your journeys once they begin and share them with us all as well. I hope nobody has become overly offended by this post, but this is me. This is raw. This is what is on my mind.

Beaner OUT.

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Its down to 9 days from the Toronto Pro. I am stoked.

I made a few predictions on on what I think about the show and how the ladies are going to pan out in the pro ranks, as well as for May 25th New York Pro.

I feel so un-Canadian saying this, but I am more excited about how the bodybuilders are doing than how the Leafs are doing… and we can all agree that they did so well cuz they only had a half season… anymore and they woulda gotten rocked. Although I did have faith at one point, the leafs losing in the playoffs is a streak that will always prevail.

ANYWAYS РIf you are not aware of how awesome the NY Pro show is, you should definitely get on board and check the lineup:

Quality. Appreciate it haters!


Just read a good article, although a little dated, its from last January, written by good old Antoine, the French Canadian guy thats going to¬†dominate the world…

I feel like I can relate a bit to it, and the approach I take in my offseason to build my shoulders is quite similar. It’s time to step up the game though and bring those puppies up to par. I also have leg problems and they just balloon at the sight of a weight, so it doesnt matter what i do… weights or not, those things grow.

Following this said advice, obviously judging by photos you can determine that my width is an issue…especially when¬†I turn around. BAM!¬†bottom heavy.¬†And while i’ve been killing back, i need some cannon balls to complete the look. I also have to work on my back pose, it seems i always get the back pose jitters and screw it up. Having tree trunks for legs doesnt help the cause either lol.


Time to make some written goals. The next four weeks I will be going right into the nitty gritty of measuring my goals. Not only do I need my shoulders to grow, i need to look like a scary creature when i’m in Mexico in January.

Goooooin mad haaaaaaaaaaaard!

And with that, I leave you with some Live Pantera.

Getting down to the Cellular Level

So i’ve had a lot of time to research lately, as my offseason programs are usually generated in cycles of trial and error with different approaches.

If you recall, these are the goals i set for myself this offseason:

  • Build mass on my upper body
  • Keep my conditioning in check
  • Bring down my legs
  • achieve an overall ‚Äúharder‚ÄĚ look year round
  • Maintain a 10 lb fluctuation from stage weight

So far i’ve managed to keep those goals in mind, and basically maintain a healthy physique to contribute to my succession of these goals.

I found the following article on Controling Leptin and Controlling Your Leanness

After hearing so much about why you “shouldnt bulk, should bulk, stay within 10 lbs, stop doing cardio completely” la de da de da. THere are so many opinions, that whatever you do, it seems to be right or wrong based on someone’s philosophy.

So i realized, we gotta get down to the cellular level of body mechanics and how it responds to your diet; what happens when you eat, what happens when you eat too much, what happens when you eat too little, what happens to your body? How does it adapt….

Most of you are familiar with the recent scare of “Metabolic Damage” and I think this article is indeed something you should read, to get right down to the nitty gritty of how your body is REALLY reacting. Leptin and Insulin people, the production of hormones and all that jazz, its a wonderful thing. And if you know how to manipulate your bodies levels – you know it starts by avoiding Gluttony.


Quick Tip: Clean eating for the Family

It’s probably hard to eat with your whole family when you’re on a restricted diet. Why not try to spice up their lives for dinnre, but keep your diet clean in the meantime?

Quick Switches for great taste and a smaller waistline:

Ingredient: Corn Flakes and Breadcrumbs
Substitute With: Oatmeal and Flaxseed

Tuna Salad With Mayo
Substitute With: Tuna Salad made with Avocado

Ingredient: Soft Shell Tacos
Substitute with: Romaine Lettuce Shell

Substitute Further: XLean Ground Turkey instead of Ground Beef

Remember, keep things simple people!

Little people in the cupboard

So I figured i’d let you know what happened this weekend to the likes of James and I…

Well we watched his old neighbours house burn to the ground. that was nuts, and also fishy…. Anyways i feel sorry for the family, and i feel equally as sorry for the son of the guy who works for the home owner, who is now probably fired or in debt by a couple mill. Yeah, ASTON MARTIN, JAG, 2 boats or something… Not to mention a 3 storey house. Someone, somewhere, has pooped theirselves a few times thinking about their shitty barbeque skills. That will make you think twice about forgetting to clean the grease tray, or turn off the propane.


And with that, I leave you the picture of the house…